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ah. so yesterday..er today..er yesterday...TECHNICALLY yesterday but really today. lol JULY 1st, i mean... canada day. my mom's b-day.

today was according to some horoscope thing my mom read supposed to be my luckiest day until like...december 2007... so, if i was superstitious i'd have expected some amazing thing to happen to me today. well guess what, the day was only a little above average in my rating system. i'd say both this past saturday and the one before it were much better days than today. so ha, stupid horoscope. there. it's all a LIIIIEEEE. lol. (oh and my mom made my dad and i play the lottery today since we're the same zodiac sign and she figures maybe we'll be lucky in that sense lol)

anyhoo. sarah had told me that her and some friends would be at columbia lake today... asked me to come... i said i'd have to see... and i was going to tell her i can come.. but i didn't see her online... instead, kevin ended up asking me to come too... so i just told him i'd come.

when i got there... i couldn't find them at first. i was supposed to meet up with kevin, azi and erin. after maybe 15 minutes of hunting i found them.

a little bit later, i saw amber. looking same as usual. then sarah dropped by. said hi to her. kevin said he might drop by her and her friends later, so she told me to come with him when he does. then i thought i saw ela..and some other girls. and i was right. so they came up. we chatted a bit. ela told me that kait and tamara were also with them. (oh, "them" being her, bird, and two girls i hadn't met before - - nikki and eden)

so ela told me to come with them to find kait and tamara... i went along. told kevin and company that i'd be back soon.

lol that was a lie. i hung out with them the rest of the time... only seeing kevin/azi/erin again once when kait, eden and i went searching for nikki and ela. also saw pootz there, and jenna, saw adam mackenzie, casey from OM, some people from school.. josh (anstett)... lotsa people.

so ela decided to take down my e-mail address and give me her e-mail address and phone number because of this little band she wants to start. i hate how i am so... not REALLY GOOD at any instrument... i'm sure renee could kick my butt at drums, and i really suck at everything else (guitar and piano/keyboard)... singing, i don't know... that depends... i really don't know how to rate myself. i know i'm not GREAT... but i dunno if i'm ANY good.. i mean, some people have given me positive feedback, but i get the feeling since they were all pretty much friends that they are just saying it... and so. what am i left to do in a band? i don't think i have enough confidence in my singing and drumming, and that's about all i really can do.

*edit* okay, so in here i went on doing a nice little rating thingy-mabob... you know, giving some grrls a score on a scale of 1-10 of their looks and personality. and i've decided to edit it out. why? because it's stupid and degrating and immature and i shouldn't have done it in the first place. so i'm going to take it out. if anyone has looked at this before i edited it, then please do disregard that..forget it. if you haven't seen it, good. all is well. that isn't even something i ever do. rating people i mean. i rate school subjects. that's about it. k, well, i've said enough on this. poof. it's out of existence now. *end of edit*

so, yes, nikki also gave me her number. which is also eden's number since they live together, but yes. nikki is..19..eden is 27. nikki told me to give her a call. and i suppose it'd be rude not to... so i probably will. i don't really particularly want to... well, i really don't care i mean... but it's not that i WANT to.. but, have to be nice. maybe i'll just give her my number and let her have the control of the contact and then if i decide i don't want the contact i have a way of somehow making things just kinda die away. if i find she's nice enough and i want her as a friend, great, i guess i'll end up calling her every now and then too... but the chances of anything more than friendship are... more or less not there.

ooh, so yesterday i went to the mall and i bought my mom her b-day present and i also got myself the tegan and sara cd. so i'm currently listening to it. i've listened to it a few times now..i love it. lol i don't even know which one's which. (tegan/sara)...

anyhoo. yeah... so i've been talking to steve (guitar class steve..not lizak).. lol talking about... polygamy? sorta lol.. yeah. apparently he's been in such a relationship... not that he had many partners.. he was just one of many. so yes lol, now i'm thinking about that... interesting prospect...

i honestly, as long as everything is out in the open, i don't think i'd mind that from liz or anyone else... like, be with me and others. and i wouldn't mind having the same options open to me. lol. but. it's just a thought. all i really want is liz. hell, if i ever DID have more than one... it'd be like... liz is my actual, real, relationship relationship..and anything else would just be kinda... extra.

anyhoo. hopefully i get to see liz soon. i feel like i haven't seen her in ages... even though i saw her saturday which was just a few days ago... maybe tomorrow i'll see her. i'm free all the time more or less so... it's really in her hands. i miss her though. saturday seems like so long ago... we've had the show/party sunday... nothing much monday (shopping alone..being mopey and all)... today we had the canada day at columbia lake dealio... so yeah...things have been sorta eventful... so saturday feels like a while ago. so i miss liz more. and more. and more.

anyhoo..i should be off to bed... dream of grrls?? we can hope. lol. yummy grrls. like liz. and ela. and sarah. and...i'll shut up. lol. liz. of course, the only one i actually... care about.... love... liz. liz. god. i love her. off i go. gonna put in tegan and sara and zzzzzzz while dreaming of liz. as if i can decide what i'll dream. *shrugs* meh. i can hope.

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