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Ah, man...

I'm such an idiot... for so many reasons.

One - let's just not talk about one. As has been the case for the past few months... anything related to emotions just gets pushed away to the dark corners called my mind and/or my private journal... for no one but me to see...

Two - I wanted to do SOOO well in algebra - I wanted algebra to be my highest mark being that it was one of my fav courses (in competition w/ psych) but because of my laziness and the length of the exam, that's not gonna happen. Mind you, if I do bad on the 3 remaining exams, it just might be the highest one lol. But no, what I mean is, I wanted to get over 90 on this exam... and now it's like oh please please please please let me get around 80. Being that I only did maybe... 80-85% of the exam, that would require me to get perfect/near-perfect on everything else... which is hopefully not too much to ask.

Three - You'd think after yesterday's experience I would have spent every waking minute studying for philosophy tonight.. however, THAT hasn't happened. I procrastinated till 6:30pm yesterday... felt VERY tired being that I only slept from 8:30pm-12am (so 3.5 hrs) the night before... and so from between 6:30 and 7pm yesterday till 6:30 this morning, I slept. Since then, I've eaten and sat around on the computer.

It's 11:02am. The exam starts in 8 hours... can I write 5 decent outlines for each of the 5 short essays I have to write (roughly 2 pages double spaced in length, each)? We shall see. Hopefully I can. If I start soon... Okay, at 12 I'm gonna go grab some lunch... and then work away until it's time to go.

Yeah... I started studying for algebra at 11am on Wed. Then stopped around 8pm... slept till midnight, studying again till 7:30ish. Wrote the exam at 9. Mind you, I didn't get to cover the last chapter - which was 13% of the exam - I estimate a 5/13 on that part lol. We'll see. It depends on how generous/cruel they are.

Anyway... I keep typing here on and off... it's 12:18 now. Still haven't started philosophy. Say what she will, she does seem to have some power over me - the power to increase what's already there: a tendency to procrastinate as much as possible. LoL, anyway. I seem to be feeling better. Why? Because I sorta shared some thoughts. Let someone see inside this little book called me. Whodda thunk I'd do it, and moreso, that it'd make me feel better? Not me, that's for sure.

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