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So... yesterday... I "studied" for my philosophy exam for a total of about 2 hours... Well, being that I had the exam in front of me... I picked the 5 of the 10 essay questions I wanted to answer, and sorta went through the notes so I could figure out what the hell they were talking about... some of them, I'd be like "huh? what the hell's that?" so then I'd have to glance at the notes, and that'd be that.

For one of them... the question said to like explain how the example of the melting piece of wax relates to Descartes' Meditations, and I was like "oh, sweet! I remember when we talked about that wax thing" problem is, I had trouble figuring out what the HELL it had to do w/ Descartes' Meditations - that was probably the section of the course I paid least attention to. So, on the exam, before writing, I had the one girl kinda explain how it was related, and I was kinda going "what? that's bullshit" - so that's what I did on the exam for that one: bullshitted. I sorta ended up explaining the whole wax thing, and try to relate it to Descartes as much as I could, and then I sorta went off to say that that's wrong, and proved what he was trying to prove a different way (not MY way, he used this way too... I just didn't buy the whole wax thing)...

For the first part, I planned to write about the first of the two questions, but once I had the one girl go over what the second one even WAS, I realised that I'd be better off writing about that, so I did... so yeah, I changed plans over which question to answer even. Talk about unprepared lol.

Odd part is, the girl who explained the first part to me, before that, she was asking about the very last question, and I seemed to understand it VERY well... and the only thing I did was to check out of the two guys mentioned in the question, which one said what (didn't wanna mix em up)... So yeah, that's odd. I really did absorb the course contents well I guess... even though it was far too early for my brain to be operating well..

Anyway, enough on that... good exam. I enjoyed writing it...

Oh and I've realised that when I write tests/etc is when I tend to most realise whether I like a course or not... If I enjoy writing the test, I'll fall in love w/ the course... for instance, phil felt so bland and boring most of the time... but then come test time, I was like, yes, writing stuff that's interesting, awesome, me like!

Or algebra... before the mid-term: *bitch bitch bitch* this is too complicated, bla bla bla. Study for mid-term. Enjoy it. Go write mid-term. Have fun doing it. Love it.

I think the same was the case for psych... the first test. But really, psych was interesting regardless...

Or, if you'd like a reverse - CS. I enjoyed it up until the mid-term which just caused my mark to plummet down down down. From then on it's been like "ugh. I can't decide which I dislike more - calculus or this". So yeah..

Oh, and you know what else? For psych... yeah, I think I was all like "booyah!" after the first test, going "yeah, I got 94%, second highest mark in a 220 person class! I rock!" and then, look what happened with the following 3 tests: test2: 81%, test3: 67%, test4: 64%... how many people knew what I got on test 1? How many knew about 2,3 and/or 4? Eeeexactly. See, I hide things like that from others, but if it's something good, EEEEVERYONE knows. Hmm... bragging issues? Issues w/ how smart I appear to others? Who knows. It's just like - I'm supposed to do well, so when I do, it's good, and I share it, but when I don't do well, then I'm not doing what I should be doing, so I shut up about it.

And now link this with another thing... Liz. I very freely and openly professed my love for her. Bring in Jenn. I shut up completely. So, when it came to a point of "okay, I'm not supposed to like her anymore" I just shut up (regardless of the fact that I really didn't go anywhere at all on the feelings scale.. if I went anywhere, it definitely wasn't down). So it's like with anything - if I'm supposed to be doing one thing which I'm not doing, I'm just keeping it to myself - otherwise, I'll freely speak about it.

Anyhoo. I'm gonna go now. Don't feel like typing anymore. I wasn't gonna make this such an almost purely school-related entry but *shrugs* what can you do.

Oh, and how the hell does this work: the whole term, I really don't socialise w/ my close friends much at all... and then during the exam-period I'm going to a PARTY? Jeez. It's all so backwards. Yeah, party at Kevin's tonight says Sid. So me's going... in a couple hours.

I'm off. Toodles.

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